Playing on the iPod: "Collide" by Howie Day, "If You're Not The One" by Daniel Bedingfield and "Hold My Hand" by New Found Glory.

I feel like I need to record the experience I had last night. Also for the sake of record-keeping, I'm adding all of the history behind the experience. There are two women that were a part of my life that I will never forget: Lisa and Joan.

Playing on the iPod: "Stolen" by Dashboard Confessional, "Our God Is With Us" by Steven Curtis Chapman and "Everything" by Lifehouse.

I have written anything lately because, well, I just never knew what to write. These past few months have been a bit of an emotional roller coaster. But, I think I'm finally ready to put some of my thoughts into words. Looking back, I can see that my life has spiraled downward in many ways. I sit and think about how much of it I want to share on here. Do I really want everyone to know everything? It's time to be vulnerable.

Playing on the iPod: "Breath of God" by Shane & Shane and "Collide" by Howie Day.

I spen most of this week at Orlando's Orange County Convention Center. The Convention Center is further away from my house than I thought - 60 miles round trip. I had to get dressed up to 'business casual'. My shirt had a collar and I had to wear black slacks - a far cry from my usual t-shirt and jeans.

I don't hate hippies. But, if I needed a reason to, I have found it: flip-flops.

Playing on the iPod: "Sunday Bloody Sunday" by Pillar.

I made mention of a young woman with whom I had begun a relationship with. Well, that same relationship has recently come to an end. It's quite possibly the most positive breakup I've experienced. We both had begun to feel like something was missing. The phone conversations became less satisfying. My interest had begun to lessen such that I called her less and less. I finally bit the bullet, threw it all out on the table, and found I wasn't alone.

You wouldn't think of the end of a relationship with someone you really like as a good thing. However, it's such a relief to know that I'm not tied up in something that, quite frankly, neither one of us believes is what God wants for us. Both apiritual and emotional maturity prevailed and we released each other to be free to pursue whatever opportunities the Lord brings to us on our respective ends of the country.

So, yes, I'm a free agent again.